TMJ Bites!
Friday, July 8, 2016
Long Time No Post
I realized yesterday that I don't update my blog anymore, for the reasoning that my TMJ issues just aren't that significant to me anymore, so why would I update you guys on nothing!
But, then I realized that the nothingness is probably something that some of you need to hear.
It's been just over 2 years since I had my surgery, and here is where I'm at:
I got my braces off in April, and rather than a retainer, or my good ole' buddy splint, I was given a bite corrector to finish moving my teeth into the perfect place, and the get my open bite under control once and for all.
I have some soreness in my jaw still, both sides, but It gets better with chiropractic work, the right supplements, and stretching.
I click a little on my left side when I open, but with no pain. It doesn't worry Doctor Piper much, so it doesn't worry me.
I am eating just about anything I want, with caution. I'll chew gum for like 5 minutes at a time, tops. Ill eat harder meats if I chew lightly. And as far as the crunch factor goes, I just don't bite all the way down with as much force as I usually would before surgery.
I am living everyday with a bigger, happier, and less painful smile now that I'm in such a solid place in my recovery. I could not be more pleased with where I'm at with my TMJ today.
Just remember, when you feel like you're drowning in an ocean of pain and limitations and frustration, and you think you're never going to surface again, the land is RIGHT there. Just ride the waves and know that you are SO close to such a life-changing recovery.
I wish you all the Best of luck with your journey, whether you've just begun, are almost done like me, or are right in the middle of it all... YOU GOT THIS !:)
BTW THIS IS THE BITE CORRECTOR. EXCUSE THE STOCK PHOTO
Thursday, August 27, 2015
One of Those Days
Sorry to be a Debby Downer, but I feel like I need to let out some frustrations. Well, one in particular.
I HATE HAVING BRACES. I am 18 years old, and I have BRACES. And, yes... I have already had them for over a month, and have already thrown my fits about it... But it just isn't getting any easier for me and I don't know why. Well, maybe I do.
Really, 18 isn't even that old at all. But I am applying for jobs left and right, some big and full-time, some small, part-time and just help until I can support myself on my own. BUT I just had a 2 part interview for a server position, and they never called.. They were supposed to call by tonight, and IMMEDIATELY my mind goes to the fact that I have braces and that I can't do anything adult-like because I HAVE BRACES!!!!
And it's very likely that they will call me tomorrow and either say I got the job or tell me really why I didn't, but until then... It's because I am an adult with the train tracks of a middle schooler.
Okay so my mind is in a million different places and I am just here to say that ITS OKAY TO GET FRUSTRATED AND BE SAD THAT YOU HAVE TO GET BRACES FOR THE ZILLIONTH TIME AND YOU CAN HAVE A BREAKDOWN WITHOUT BEING AN EMOTIONAL WRECK!!!! ITS OKAAAYYYYYYYYY! we are okay :)
And we are back to SO! I really write posts when i'm feeling down in a desperate attempt to cheer myself, and thankfully it always works!
Obviously there are other ways to cheer yourself up.. some of them being:
- Sing a happy song
- Listen to your favorite (happy) songs
- Talk to people that you love and can be happy around (not about your problems)
- Put on your favorite outfit and go to your favorite place to eat
- Write a poem about how awesome you are
- Write down why you are feeling bad and BURN IT!!!!
- Smile smile smile!! Even if you don't want to.. Science says it works, sooooo ;)
Sunday, July 26, 2015
Sorry i'm a slacker
So i'm about 14 months post-op. I have said my goodbyes to my splint, and bitterly welcomed braces in its place. I'm sure I've said this before, but this is my FOURTH time with braces, and i'm over it. But... As resistant and angry as I have been over them, I need to accept them and get used to it. After all, its just 9-12 months. I am more upset over how I look with them than the fact that they're a burden on my life.. Because they're not.
Truthfully, they don't cut up my mouth nearly as much as I remembered, and since I've had them before so many times, they don't make my teeth very sore at all. It's just the fact that I turned 18 yesterday (AHHHH!!), so i'm supposed to be entering adulthood, you know? I already look pretty young, but now that I have braces, I just feel like it will be harder for people to take me seriously as an adult, and might keep me from doing things that I want to do (career-wise). I know that's a bunch of bologna, but it's what's on my mind.
Regardless of my occasional pouting to my family and very best friends, I don't like to show my frustrations to other people. The best thing to do in my situation is to rock 'em. Smile bigger, shine brighter, and work harder. Sometimes I will catch myself feeling embarrassed to meet new people because of my braces, then I snap myself out of it, because really, who cares? I don't need to be around anyone who doesn't like me because of how I look.. Especially because it's a temporary thing.
So between my 9 month post and now, not much has changed besides "out with Hannibal Lector and in with Metal Mouth." (which I think is a good name for this transition). I'm still on a soft chew diet for every meal ("anything softer than a meatball") and i'm still taking the vitamins I was prescribed. I still have some popping in my right side, but less pain. I'm living my life and doing fun and exciting things! I am to the point where the surgery recovery only affects me because I have braces in my mouth, but there is no part of recovery at this point that is stopping me from doing anything I want to do.
Some of my biggest advice after making it this far is this:
- Don't just lay around because you're down about recovery. Do something fun!
- Be positive!
- If you get annoyed at people who make fun of you (joking or not), make fun of yourself before they get the chance. The jokes definitely get old, so don't give people the chance to make them :)
- And never stop smiling. Especially if you're feeling insecure about your mouthful of splint/braces. If you show people that your confidence has not been compromised, they will think more highly of you.
Tuesday, March 3, 2015
9 MONTH
12 pm, Jacksons office: got more brackets off than originally expected :) talked about plan for braces.
3 pm, Piper Clinic: Impressions done, and released into the world with my new pretty white smile :)
What a journey. I know it's not over yet, and I have quite a while to go, but the hard part is over. I can't believe I made it this far without breaking down and eating a back of pita chips, or chowing down on a yummy steak. I get a little emotional thinking about how tough it was for me in the beginning and how I pushed through it to get where I am today. I am SO beyond happy with my progress and can't wait to graduate officially from the Piper Clinic. Although I will miss everyone there like family.
Sunday, January 11, 2015
Set back
My jaw has been popping on the left side for quite some time. I'm now supposed to be wearing my surgical splint JUST at nighttime. BUT, since I'm not exactly where I should be in recovery, I have to wear my splint 2 times a day for 2 hours each. AND, when I'm don't have it in for those set times, I have to wear it in half banded, so I can still open my mouth, but I still have it banded to my upper teeth, so that when I bite, I bite into the splint.
So that really sucks. its painful being in my splint so much, and I'm ready for this whole thing to be over AND I'm really stressed because my jaw is popping more. So I'm having a grand ole time.
To top all of this off, I've been sick for the past week, AND I cut my hair yesterday... I HATE it. So this week has been one of those where I just want to sit in my room and cry.
I know this is a pretty common expression, but have you ever shot a bow and arrow? Or saw someone shoot one? You pull back the arrow and string, WAY back.. and the RELEASE! And the arrow goes shooting towards your target.
So thats kind of like life.. When life is pulling you back and you're feeling not so great, just remember you're being prepared to SHOOT forward into better things. So don't feel too bad. :)
Heres a few pictures from my winter break. :) Xx
Wednesday, November 12, 2014
Making Progress'
I am almost 6 months post-op. 6 MONTHS!!!!!!! I can't even believe it! Just wanted to make a post letting you know where I am at personally in recovery, and how I'm doing! (Just a reminder that not everyone will make the same progress and be at the same point in recovery at the same time. Everyone heals differently. Take your time and don't base your recovery off of other people's. You'll get there, I promise.
SPLINT SCHEDULE:
As of November 1st, I have to wear my splint 2 times a day, 2 hours each.
On December 1st, I get to move down to wearing my splint 1 time a day, for 2 hours.
On January 1st, I will wear my splint at bedtime, and whenever I feel I need to throughout the day. (driving, dancing, going to fairs or amusement parks, etc.)
EATING:
I am on a soft chew 1 time a day diet. Usually in the morning I will eat eggs. (I like them over medium so it makes them easier not to chew. Ive been eating that since I first got the surgery.)
For lunch, I am at school 5 days a week, and there is a microwave that is available to me by special request in the office because of surgery. Everyday i use the microwave and eat mac and cheese singles or ramen occasionally. I am going to try and find something a little bit healthier.
Dinner is usually when I use my soft chew. the rule is: "Anything softer than a meatball". So I chew things like pasta, soft bread, actual meatballs (lol), fish, SOME chicken if it is very tender, and anything of the sort.
PAIN&MEDS:
Because my severe TMJ was caused by whiplash, I still have a lot of neck and upper back pain. I heat my neck when it gets bad, and take ibuprofen when needed.
My jaw gets a little sore when I am out of my splint for an extended period, when I soft chew, when I sing and when I talk a lot (which is common). If it gets really bad I will take a klonopin before bedtime.
SO that's pretty much it. I'm living life like normal, hanging out, going on adventures, succeeding in school, and making future career plans of being a flight attendant, wooh :) Here's just some pictures of my dance partner and I at a performance, because I hate posting without a picture!
Xx
Surgery hair
So I never REALLY noticed my baby hairs until about 3/4 months post-op, but when I did, it was because I threw my hair up in a bun and saw these awkward little hairs behind my ear just chillin. I have always noticed my new "sideburns" of course, because they are in front of my ear and always showing, but not the back! After I noticed them, I swear they started growing ten times faster!!! Now depending on how they dry if I don't pin them back, they'll curl around my ear or go straight down if my hair is up or any other non-attractive little thing they can do, they do. I'm starting to embrace them, even though they just keep growing, like hair is known to do, and keep getting more and more noticeable. But I figured, I can't do anything about it, so why worry? so now, hair up or hair down, i just let those little sucker free to do whatever they want.. flow in the wind, curl around my ear in a nice big hug, go straight down, or do the right thing and go in the direction of the rest of my hair... (rare). they're learning quickly, though. Anyways... Enjoy a few of the pictures I've taken of my little baby surgery hairs in the last month or two!!
Saturday, September 13, 2014
Hello!
Tuesday, September 2, 2014
3 month visit
Thursday, August 21, 2014
Surgery Survival 101
When I arrived at the hospital for surgery, everything went very fast. We got checked in, were moved upstairs, my mom french braided my hair (you have to keep it out of your face), and then I was pulled back to get my IV and medications and get all cozy in my HEATED hospital gown. So here is a list of things I brought, and things I wish I brought.
For you Caretaker or Friends/Family that accompany you:
-A blanket/pillow to sleep during your surgery (if they can), and overnight.
-Something to keep them entertained. Books/computer or IPad with movies/games/snacks. The last thing you need is for them to be nervous little worrywarts during the whole surgery!
-A packed dinner if they don't want to eat the hospital food.
For YOU:
-A blanket. (good for before AND after surgery)
-A really cozy change of clothes. they can unhook the IV (without taking the needle out and putting it back in) so you can change into something much comfier than a hospital gown.
-Slippers with grip on the bottom, in case you don't want to wear the hospital socks. Also some socks of your own are nice to have.
-I brought a white board and dry erase markers, but I really wish I would have thought of my doodle board then. it is not messy at all, and very easy to use and carry around. But all in all, bring something to help you communicate, be it a doodle board, white board, chalkboard, or pen and paper. You don't want to have people trying to interpret your moans and groans for 20 minutes when all you want is some water.
-I really enjoyed having my stuffed animal I got from a surgeon of mine when I was 5. When I was in recovery, I was crying and complaining that I couldn't breathe, (I was just being dramatic) and Dr. Piper brought me back my teddy bear! That's my only memory from recovery, and its a darn good one.
-I usually slept between hall walks, but when I was up, I wanted to play games with my parents and boyfriend. We didn't bring cards or anything like that, so we played hangman on my white board, but I really wish I would have brought a deck of cards!
-The hospital provides a sort of lip balm, but I really wish I would have brought my own, because theirs is very watery and clumps up when it dries. I have found after trying many different things, that EOS balms work the best for me.
-Bring the heating pad you picked up with your other prescriptions, and make sure to replace your ice when it all melts. The nurses were good about checking in, so we rarely had to leave the room for new ice.
-Bathroom essentials (deodorant, soft toothbrush, toothpaste) were very nice to have. I felt a little gross after being in the hospital overnight.
-Bring a free-standing mirror. You're going to want to look at yourself. A lot. Or at least I did. I got this Mary Kay pink travel mirror. It holds your hooks, rubber bands, a mirror, and your splint. It sells for $3 on amazon.
-The hospital will supply your nutritional drinks and water and syringes, tissues, an ice pack, and wash cloths.
MAKE SURE YOU DON'T EAT OR DRINK ANYTHING PAST MIDNIGHT THE NIGHT BEFORE YOUR SURGERY AND GOOD LUCCCKKKK!
Xx
So Far So Awesome!
Tuesday, August 19, 2014
First Day
Saturday, August 16, 2014
Back To School
Freak Out
So I got home, feeling like a shower. I talked to my brother in the living room for a few minutes, said hi to my dad in his room, got my towel from my room, and hopped in the shower. As soon as I got out of the shower, my timer to put my splint back in went off. But where was my splint? I don't know.
I searched all over the bathroom, all over the kitchen, my dads room, my room (even cleaned it all up) and all around my car. In the console, in the cup holders, under the seats, under the CAR. EVERYWHERE! My mom came home and helped me look all over the house, and double checked the car.
We started losing hope. We decided to call the piper clinic (which is apparently closed at 3pm on a Friday) And had to call it in as an emergency. So we left a very shameful message about my misplacement of my splint, and continued out desperate search. I was literally freaking out. I was so scared. I have been so good about keeping track of my splint, and then, I just lost it. literally.
I ran out to my car for one last sweep, and did the whole search routine again. About to turn around and go inside, something made me turn around and go around to the passenger side again. I pulled out my phone flashlight and checked under the seat, AGAIN. But then... there it was. The one thing i never thought that i would be SO happy to see.
I ran inside, washed it about 8 times, and my mom and I called back the "urgent" line at Piper Clinic, and left a second, even more shameful message explaining the false alarm. OOPS.
The oral of the story is.. KEEP YOUR SPLINT IN A CASE! Even if you think that you're just putting it down for a second.
AND SMILE
Xx
Monday, August 11, 2014
What's New? Not Much, What's New With You?
Monday, August 4, 2014
CAMP
I started ambassador camp today (show choir camp) which was so much fun, but my jaw was aching from start to finish (all 9 hours of camp total). I haven't been taking my klonopin very much at all, so it wasn't weird or off schedule that I skipped it this morning. I think I am going to take one each morning before camp this week, because things weren't feeling too great.
But tonight is one of "Those nights". The nights I have only occasionally this far into recovery, where I bring out the ice packs and the klonopin. My neck hurts, my jaw aches, my back is sore, my incision spots are in a lot of sharp pain, and i can't seem to fall asleep. Like always.
To top it all off I have some sort of head cold/sore throat type thing going on, which makes it EXTREMELY difficult to breathe with my splint in. I'm super stuffy and I keep having to stretch open my mouth and get a good breath in every few minutes or so. But it's all temporary and tolerable for now.
There's nothing ice packs and some good ole Elvis records can't fix.
Thursday, July 31, 2014
Tuesday, July 29, 2014
Friday, July 25, 2014
Birthday :)
Sunday, July 6, 2014
Dreaming
Sunday, June 29, 2014
Been a while.
Wednesday, June 18, 2014
Sunday, June 15, 2014
A little late but...
Friday, June 13, 2014
"Exercises"
well when i first tried in the office, i was at about a half, which wasn't abnormal, being that it was my first time out of the splint since surgery. well, you do it five times a day, and i kept going and finally got to a full one! I WAS SO PUMPED! so then i moved the stopper to level two, and I DID IT!!! (mind you, this is me yelling in excitement about where i am on my therabite, on the bathroom counter in the middle of my brothers grad party). since then i've been working on a level two, since i was on lots of meds, and i have only been able to force a full two, one more time since then. and i continue to keep going and trying and pushing myself to the next level.
well our phone consultation came up and they talked about all the basics, and discussed my meds and how i was feeling.. how i was eating.. was i coming out five times a day, etc. etc. etc.
then they mentioned my exercise schedule. "she's doing her jiggles, i assume she's on about a 3 or 4 on the therabite"
… well no, try a 2.
"other patients are usually around a 3 or 4 now, sometimes even a 5"
… no. i'm a 2. on a good day.
i couldn't take that. i burst into tears. i have been pushing myself before that phone call and i thought i was doing so good, and here i am, feeling so stupid because i was excited about being at a less-than-average point in my recovery.
i cried and cried, (im crying right now) and since the call i have been pushing and pushing. They suggested trying heat 15 minutes before i do my exercises, and that has done nothing. i work at it, i go as far as i can, and i just CAN NOT get myself past a two. i hit a full two this morning. i was going through my exercises and just got so frustrated and started crying and somehow i pushed myself to a full two, but there is no possible way i can top that. not right now.
well i felt really stupid, and i felt really bad, and felt lie I'm not doing good enough. well from the beginning i have been told not to compare my progress to other patients, so why shouldn't that apply now? i am working on level 2 on my therabite. i am pushing myself as hard as i can, and i am not giving up, but a 2 is where I'm at. it is all i can do. maybe thats a bad thing, but i can't let myself feel stupid and insecure and belittled by the fact that i can't open my mouth as far as the others who got surgery on the same day (which by the way is someone very supportive who has spoken to me about this already).
you recover at your own speed. i am cutting my meds in half, maybe even a little less. yes, i am feeling a little more pain, but i expected that by cutting my meds. i feel like i have swelled up a little since cutting meds and trying a little harder on my exercises, but thats all part of recovery. i feel like the medication was making me feel a little less like my happy giddy bouncy self. i blamed it on the fact that my face was just cut open for a while, BUT i feel like crying when someone looks at the camera the wrong way when I'm watching a film. so cutting meds may be what i need. i am already feeling (personality-wise) more like myself. still having rough patches. I'm still in pain. I'm still pretty upset about the therabite.
i did however just have some chocolate cake and ice cream, so i am feeling a bit better.
XX
Wednesday, June 11, 2014
Adventure Time!!!
- walked the streets of St. Pete, making new friends
- went thrift shopping with my mom and grandma
- painted a tree (and my boyfriend) and swam in the river
- been to the mall (several times)
- went to the beach with my mom, aunt, and grandma
- went to the movies
- went to the movies again
- went to my brother/boyfriends graduation
- went to my ambassador end-of-year party
- went to my ambassador start-of-next-year meeting
- a little bit of Netflix but whatcha gonna do ;)
Boyfriend appreciation post
From day one, he has been in the hospital with me, (before and after surgery) and at my house constantly. he was there when i took my splint out for the first time outside of piper's office and i just cried and cried. he was there when i did the same thing, and him and my mom drug me to public and make me get some food that i like (i was stubborn, of course).
he stays with me at night time until i fall asleep, and watches stupid movies with me because he knows it will make me happy. just a few pics i managed along the way. ( a few repeats, perhaps)